Countdown to the new squishy foobs..

While most of you are out voting on Tuesday I will be finally getting my new foobs (fake boobs). It’s just so hard to believe that it’s finally time…it seems like such a long time ago that all this started. My surgery will be at 1:00 on Tuesday. I am also going to get my port removed by Dr. K. I think back to when I first heard about these “foreign objects” being placed in my chest…I remember worrying that just the thought of them would drive me insane but really it hasn’t been too bad. I am thankful that I had the port because it made chemo and my Herceptin treatments go so much better (only 3 more Herceptin treatments to go - WOW!. The expanders have been uncomfortable but I wouldn’t really describe them as painful…just something that took some time to get used to. My latest “pet” name for them is “weathervane”…I swear that one points east and one points west….I just keep hoping the PS can do some magic and pull these babies back to where they belong!

I went down to the hospital for a pre-op appt on Tuesday…I think I have more anxiety with these surgeries than I realize. While I was waiting to be called back by the nurse I could tell that I was sweating and starting to feel kind of sick….just like the last time I went for pre-op. I had the same nurse that I had for my lumpectomy….you might be surprised that I can remember that but on that day she couldn’t get my IV in and at this appt. she couldn’t hit a vein to draw blood…after much poking and prodding she finally got one between my knuckles…if they try to put an IV in that same spot next week I will FREAK OUT…call my a big baby but that spot hurts. I really do dread the anesthesia…I am not afraid of it from a standpoint of worrying that I won’t wake up or afraid that it won’t take affect I just hate getting sick afterwards…maybe I will get lucky and not get sick but I can’t help dreading it. I also hate the way I feel those first couple days after surgery…it just seems like it takes so long for me to get that crap out of my head.

The surgery is an outpatient procedure so I will be home late that day. I plan to be off work until the following Wednesday. The ps said I have to limit how much I move my arms…the main objective is to keep the new foobs right where she puts them and let the tissue heal around them. I have to wear that uncomfortable surgical bra for a week and then an underwire bra 24 hours a day for a month….I have to admit I have gotten used to not wearing a bra these last few months so this will take some getting used to.

That’s enough about surgery…I guess I haven’t done a hair update for a while. My curls just seem to get curlier and overall my hair seems to grow out and up (think Beaker from the Muppets) instead of down…some days I wonder if I will ever have any length. I can actually wear a headband now so that is kind of fun to add accessories.

Everything else is going fine…October has been such a busy month! My 41st b-day was a great one…much better than 40! A few days after my birthday I met up with Cheryl in Indianapolis…we stayed at a great hotel downtown, did some shopping and lots of catching up….it was a PERFECT getaway with my dear friend. On Saturday I had the best pedicure of my life in a wonderful little spa downtown and then I headed home. I got “detoured” by a new casino that is between Indy and Cinci…I spent a few hours there…lost some money and then came home. I took that Friday off and went with Jillian’s class to a pumpkin patch…I don’t get the chance to go on fieldtrips with her so that was a special treat. It really was a fun morning except for getting bus sick on the way and being stuck with another kid that had some behavior issues…I also had to walk a mile with her to the port a potty and then wait for what seemed like an hour for her to do her “business”…just my Luck! At the end of the trip I managed to bum a ride with one of the other parents and bypassed the bus sickness for the ride home!

Tyler’s football team finished their season undefeated – Go Knights! He just got braces this week so he is getting used to that…he is doing the Invisalign so if you look at him you wouldn’t even know he has them on…

Jillian is excited for Halloween. She will be a tiger. We plan to have a big group over for dinner and all the kids will go trick or treating together…it is supposed to be a great day here tomorrow so it should be a very fun night. The Moms plan to stay behind and hand out candy…we are going to move the firepit out to the front yard so we can stay nice and warm.

Happy Halloween!!!

Everything is Pink!

We just finished hosting Dinner Club for our neighborhood so I thought I would sit down and try to get caught up. We had a very fun evening with a great crowd and great food..the weather was perfect so we were able to sit out by the fire and the guys played cornhole. The party was a tailgate theme....you all know how I love my themes! I had my Halloween decorations, tailgate decor and then I had the coffee table set up with all kinds of yummy pink stuff as a breast cancer awareness area.

Have you noticed how much pink stuff is out there for October....I can remember that last year I really just tried to avoid all of it....I had become a member of a club that I didn't want to join...now I am ok with it but I still cannot believe some of the stuff that they have out there....I just can't see many people buying a pink blender??!!

I have had a couple appointments since my last update. I saw the plastic surgeon a few weeks ago for a final fill...unfortunately, she is not being very optimistic about getting a good outcome with my final surgery. The expanders have spread out so far and she just isn't sure how much she can do to get the final implants to be in the correct area. It's hard to believe that it is less than a month away. I will also be getting my port out that day. I guess I have gotten used to having all these foreign objects stuck in me....I love to sleep on my side but I know how to position an extra pillow next to me so it doesn't feel like I am laying on a softball. My surgery date is November 4th - election day...last year I was supposed to have my mastectomy on election day...kind of an odd coincidence....

I saw Dr. B. a few weeks ago and told him about the dizzy spells I was having in the evening. I had also fallen on the stairs so it was something we needed to check out. He decided to order an MRI...I had that test done this past week and it came back fine which was a huge relief. He thinks it may be some of my medications that are causing these problems but it could also be menopause...there are just no easy answers when it comes to this crap...the bad thing is that when anything comes up the first thought is always that the cancer has come back and is spreading...thank goodness for tests..

Well, that's all for now...the rest of the Middleton's are fine. Jillian is loving cheerleading...she was in the homecoming parade on Friday night which was so cute! Tyler just got back from his 8th grade Washington DC trip last weekend and he really enjoyed that..

Thanks for checking in....Think Pink!