Sunday update....

Today has been a loonngg day. I woke up in a lot of pain and wished I had another "pain ball" to plug into my chest so it would be numb again. I tried some oxycodone after breakfast but that just made me sick to my stomach so I just tried ativan after lunch to see if I could just sleep thru it but it didn't work. The pain has eased up some this evening...from what I have read I may be having muscle spasms...I was given Valium for that so we will try that tonight....wow, we have quite the drugstore here at the Middleton House these days.

My sister Vicki and her family stopped by for a quick visit...they had been to Pigeon Forge for Spring Break. It was nice to see them and Bret and Todd went out to watch some basketball late last night. I think it was good for Nurse Bret to get out and away for a little while.

We are having a hard time keeping Jillian out of the room when we are changing bandages...she really wants to see my boo-boos but there is no way I want her to see this. I think that it is pretty strange that it has almost been a week and I have not looked in the mirror...I have only looked down at the incisions...one thing that was kind of funny is that the first time I was standing up and looking down I almost panicked because it looked like my stomach was bloated...I thought it was some kind of crazy, delayed problem or complication from surgery....then I finally realized that I was getting a "CLEAR" view of how big my tummy is....that sucked!

We have been well fed this weekend by members of the Mothers and More group...we really appreciate their generosity. We also appreciate everyone helping out with Jillian and keeping her entertained....this girl never runs out of energy so she gets pretty bored with us in no time!

I was shocked today when I looked at my eyebrows while washing my face and realized they have started growing like crazy...I swear this just happened in a matter of days...too bad the hair on my head doesn't grow that fast but it is growing.

Thanks for all the prayers for peace and healing....I am just taking it one day at a time and I know there are brighter days ahead. Love - Jan

Hi!....I'm back!

It wore me out just reading all the posts from Bret and Kay and all the comments from all of you. Thank you so much to all of you that will take a minute out of your day to post a message to me...I really enjoy reading them. I also really appreciate all the cards, emails, food and gifts we have received this week. You are all wonderful! Sorry it has taken me so long to write but I really do seem to have a hard time getting all that anesthtetic out of my head. Just kind of feel like I have been in a fog this week.

On the day of my surgery I remember being very calm. A Pastor came in and prayed with me and then she did Healing Touch with me which really relaxed me and left me feeling very peaceful. I will probably continue to get those sessions. I remember they told us about the delays but then they came in and said they would give me TWO ativan to help relax me and that was it...I was in la la land for good. I do remember Carissa coming in and giving me a very special surgical hat to wear...it was bright green and covered with lady bugs which she said she chose for good luck. I loved it and I was told by the surgeon's the next day that the hat created quite a buzz in the operating room...they all wanted to know how I got one of those!! Yep - I got friends in high places!! Next thing I remember is chicken noodle soup running down my chin and then dozing on and off all night and chatting with my humorous nurse. The first surgeon came in at 4:30 to talk and the other two were in around 5:30 and said pack up and get ready to go. That's when I called Bret. I was glad that we would not have to wait all day...I just want to be home and in my own bed. I left the hospital with two drain tubes. These drain what my ps surgeon refers to as wound juice for lack of a better name. The fluid collects in two small bottles and Bret drains them and measures them and keeps track of how much we get each day - YUCK! I also had another tube which was connected to what we called the pain ball. It was a ball about the size of a large orange that was full of medicine. The tube went from the ball to each of the wound sites. It was slowly delivering numbing medicine...Nurse Bret removed that this morning and cleaned everything up. The other two drains will stay in until Friday for the PS to remove...those are stitched in. The pain really has been tolerable..the worst thing was this stupid bra that felt like it was made out of steel for a chick that maybe weighed 90 pounds...I could tell it was cutting right into the fat on my stomach....when we finally got the ok from the PS to cut the elastic I got a lot of relief...

My Mom has been a great help and it is just nice to have her here. The kids seem to be doing fine...Heather had Jillian for two nights and they had a great time....that was the first time Jillian stayed away from us but it didn't seem to phase her...Thanks Heather!

Now, let's talk about Nurse Bret. They say you get married for better or worse and Bret sure has gotten the worse part here lately. I have not even looked at myself in a mirror with the bandages off but Bret doesn't even blink an eye...I just wanted to cry yesterday when he was giving me a shower...I just seemed so helpless and I am not used to being in that condition but true to fashion he just kept cracking the jokes and kept on washing....we made a huge mess in the bathroom so hopefully we will get better at this before Friday...the PS said I am not supposed to shower until then but I couldn't even imagine that so we are being very creative with ziploc bags and towels to keep the wounds dry. Anyway, I hope he knows how thankful I am for all he does and do make an effort to let him know how much I appreciate all he does.

Well, I think it's nap time again....thanks for all the prayers...what a huge relief to hear about the clean pathology...now it's time to just focus on healing and living the best life possible.

I want to put out a prayer request for my co-worker and friend JoAnn. She was supposed to have her tonsils removed yesterday. I know that can be a very tough surgery so I just hope that she has a minimal amount of pain and is feeling better soon - love ya!

Yippee, it's the weekend!

Jan rested more yesterday and got up a couple of times. Today, she is continuing to improve. She has some uncomfortable issues from the bandages and the way they're bound, so she called the reconstructive surgeon and got some pointers on how to alleviate the discomfort. Now, she's ready to take a shower. Of course she can't take it without me, so now I have an excuse to take a shower with her!!!!! Jan's sister Vicki, b.i.l. Todd and niece Emily are coming to visit and check up on Jan, so she's looking forward to seeing them tonight. More later,
Bret

Pathology Report

Great news, the surgeon just called and said all tissue in the bad side was clear and all tissue in the good side was negative, so, everything is very positive in terms of treatment and outlook. What a relief!

The honeymoon is over

Back to a more expected state of mind and body this morning, Jan woke up with an upset stomach and was nauseous for a while. She has eaten a little and taken most of the prescribed meds, but things are starting off a little slow this morning. She's very, very sleepy, similar to what the chemo treatments made her feel like (in terms of sleepiness). She will nap again and we'll try to get her back in the groove after bit.

Twas the night before she knew it

Jan woke up from a long springs nap, and what to her wondering eyes did appear but a sleigh full of meds and a bowl of cereal. She is still doing good, I think the pain is starting to show up slightly, although not bad. She took a walk to the mail box, it was such a nice evening. All is well, she put her kerchief on her head so it wouldn't get chilled, and once again, settled in for a long spring nap! HO HO HO, see you tomorrow.

Sweet Potato Casserole!

That was the craving for lunch! We got home about 11:30 and she ate some sweet potato casserole and visited with her mom and dad while I went to fill the drug prescriptions and pick up a couple items at the store. Tyler and I moved a recliner up to the bedroom for her and set up a little "recovery room" where she has all the conveniences handy. She started getting tired and I pulled a PM on her (drained her tubes)(preventative maintenance for you girls that don't know what a PM is), gave her some more drugs and she's off to the peaceful rest she needs for a few hours.

UNBELIEVABLE!

She called me at 7 am, while I was still fast asleep and said where are you?, I've been discharged! So, I'm headed down to pick her up. UNBELIEVABLE, absolutely unbelievable!!!!!!!!

You wouldn't believe it if you saw her!

I've got to tell you, even though she doesn't have much hair, she now has more than me again, and it appears to be coming in red or auburn, but with that said, she's still showing all the characteristics of the RED! As you see from Kay's updates, the surgory was moved back a couple hours, and when things don't go as planned, Jan usually doesn't do well. She took this one in stride. It took a good 3 hours for both surgeons and then a couple hours in recovery where they wouldn't let us see her. We were finally allowed to see her in her room, and she looked as though she had a rough day. I mean a rough day, not a rough day with 3 hours of surgery and more drugs than you can count. By the time we left her to rest for the night, she had drank two small cans of pepsi and a bowl of C & N soup and was watching dancing with the stars. She had no nausea at all, which was one of our main concerns. History tells us she comes out of anestesia hard, and usually sick. She didn't this time. They must have found the right coctail. We'll have to get that recipe for future reference if its ever needed. Jan is truly an inspiring person after seeing her handle all thats been thrown her way. I'm sure we'll have more details tomorrow after we talk with both surgeons again. From what we understand, she will come home tomorrow sometime. A special thank you to several of you for helping us with the kids, sending flowers, making special arrangements with the Good Sam staff, sending prayers and simply for being our freinds and family. I know having her mom and dad here really helped put her at ease as well. Blessed are we to be so fortunate to have you all in our lives. A special thanks to Kay for keeping the blog updated today. (and, btw, she confirmed in her second update post today what I've known for a long time, I am the favorite!) More tomorrow sometime. Sweet Dreams and Here's to looking forward!
Bret

SURGERY IS OVER!!!

Just talked to "one of my favorite brother in-laws" (there you go Todd!) and Bret said the second surgery is also now complete. I spoke to him about 6:15 and they were told everything went "beautifully". Bret and my folks are not able to see her for 1-2 hours so they are in a holding pattern again! Bret says he'll call me tonight after they see Jan so hopefully I'll get one more post on here tonight. ONE MORE HURDLE OUT OF THE WAY FOR JAN!! YEAH!! Kay

THIRD UPDATE

Well, here we go again. Bret called alittle before 4PM and the first Surgeon is done with Jan. All went well he was told and now the second surgeon is performing their magic on her! More to come in a bit.
Kay

SECOND UPDATE

Well, my FAVORITE brother-in-law just called to correct my post!! Can't get anything by Bret! Anyways, Jan just went into surgery. Apparently MY time line is wrong. I BELIEVE Bret now told me from start to finish we are talking 3-6 hours. Now remember everyone that I am at work so be patient with me and KEEP PRAYING!!!!
Kay

FIRST UPDATE

Well, let's see if I get this update in the correct place for all to see! Bret just called (1:30PM) and surgery has been delayed about 1 hour. The surgeon had an emergency surgery and is behind! Bret tells me the 1st Surgeon should be with Jan about one hour and then the second Surgeon will step in and be with her about three hours. She will also be in recovery for three hours or so. Bret and my folks are looking at a 7-8 hour procedure once things get rolling. Bret assured me Jan is doing as well as can be expected, she is sort of dozing on and off. I'll keep you all updated as I hear. KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING!! Kay

Farewell to the Bad Boob & its' Evil Twin...

I want to thank all of you for your blog posts, calls and emails today...they really lifted my spirits. I went out for a little alone time tonight....walked around Borders and Wal-Mart and came home and ate some chocolate before bed....I have 43 minutes left to indulge in anything else I may want before midnight...seems like if you have a late surgery like me the cut off time should be later than midnight...don't you think??

I want to say in advance that I appreciate all of your prayers tomorrow...I am blessed to have so many people praying for me and I know God will hear those prayers and get me through this.

Surgery is not supposed to start until 1:00 and then Bret will give Kay a call and she can post an update....I will write again soon...love to all - Jan

The day before...

We had a good weekend. Mom and Dad are here so we just hung out. Bret fixed a nice Ham dinner for us for Easter. As I predicted...we did actually get snow on Easter Sunday - Yuck! It wasn't much and it was later in the day. Dad and I got out and took a nice long walk along the lake earlier in the day. The kids were busy all weekend with parties, swim lessons, etc. Tyler's 13th bithday is today...I can't believe he is a teenager!!

I feel much more calm about surgery. I think the stress at work along with the stress of the surgery was just a little too much last week. My online support group has helped a bunch this weekend. Many of the ladies told me that they thought the exact same things that I am thinking before surgery....it just really helps to have people that know exactly what you are going thru so you don't think you are totally nuts. I have learned so much about what to expect after surgery and tips on how to make things a little easier...I have even seen photos taken just a few days after a mastectomy so hopefully that will ease the shock of looking at myself for the first when the bandages are removed.

More than anything I just am sad that they just cannot find a cure for this disease...I have met some incredible women and it just makes my heart break to see a girl at the age of 20 find out she has breast cancer or to hear of a Mom in her early 30s being moved to hospice this weekend because her battle is almost over. She has two small children and they are coloring pictures and laying them on her bed so she can take them to heaven. There are women that were just married when they were diagnosed and now they may not be able to have children because of the chemo. We hear everyday that there have been so many great advances in the fight against breast cancer but every day women are dying...moms, daughters, sisters...it just doesn't seem fair.

I feel very lucky that I have such a good prognosis. One thing I have never done is ask "why me?. I have always looked at this situation as God brought this to me and hopefully he will help me defeat it because he wants me to do something good with this experience. I really believe I am supposed to help others when I am done with this so every day I pray that he will heal me and then help me see what I am to do with what I have learned.

Let's all keep praying for a cure...

Thanks to my great friends at work...

The generosity of people never ceases to amaze me. Today was my last day at work and everyone was so great. Peggy brought in some snacks and a balloon for my office. They had taken up a collection and bought several different gift cards for groceries and restaraunts in the area. I also got some very thoughtful gifts and great cards...

Of course there were plenty of hugs and well wishes. This group has been so supportive through all of this...I know there were lots of days that I didn't feel well and I was probably not the most pleasant to be around but they all were so understanding and supportive every step of the way. I know we all find it easy to complain about our jobs but I feel so blessed to work with such a great group of people....when I left Lithonia I thought I would never find such nice people to work with but here I am once again surrounded by a wonderful group of people......Thank you my LSI friends...YOU ROCK and I luv ya!

Thursday update

It has been a busy week! The rain finally stopped so it was nice to see some sunshine here...I was beginning to think we were going to need to build an Ark! I have been feeling pretty stressed out and emotional all week. I have been very busy at work trying to get things wrapped up before I leave....that has not been easy to do because I really have a hard time concentrating on anything. I tried to go shopping tonight for Tyler's b-day party tomorrow night and Easter but I just kind of walked around and couldn't stay focused on the things I needed to get...it kind of reminds me of my first week after surgery in September. I remember the first time I went out on my own I felt like I was in a daze and everyone and everything was buzzing around me but I was in slow motion....now I feel like I am being pulled along but I can't stay focused on what I need to accomplish. I know things will be better after the surgery but I can't help worrying until that is over. The bad boob keeps hurting and that drives me insane...since I had pain there before we removed the tumor now I worry that there is more cancer there...

I still haven't decided what we are going to tell Jillian next week. My friend Heather will keep her that night so we may just not even mention the hospital and just tell her that I went to the doctor again and I have a boo-boo. For some reason she was so upset about Heather being in the hospital when she gave birth to Addison...I never could understand what upset her so much but it made me worry about what we would do when it was time for my surgery. I know it will be hard on her the first few weeks after surgery because she loves to give "sqeezy hugs" and I won't be able to do that...you've read this before but I will write it again...I HATE that my kids have to go thru this...

I had my Herceptin treatment yesterday and that went fine. I made up a big Easter basket for all the staff. It was full of candy, one of the pink breast cancer ducks from my party and a crazy Easter Egg that played the song "Disco Duck"...they all got a laugh out of it and I am sure it drove Dr. B. crazy by the end of the day because everyone kept pushing it and making it play again. I had an exam with Dr. B. before treatment. I got upset when we were talking about surgery and he tried his best to get me to stop worrying so much...he also gave me a refill on my Ativan (happy pill) prescription so those will help with the anxiety this weekend and help me sleep! I was the only patient in the treatment room so I took a nice long nap....it was hard going back to work - I think I need to move my appointments to later in the day. I came home at 5:00 and immediately went to bed and slept until 9:00. I got up and had a bowl of cereal and went right back to sleep...I started taking the Aleve again today so I am hoping that will help with the mild aches that come with the Herceptin.

Hair update: Last week most of my remaining eyebrows fell out. Luckily, I had lots of time to practice filling them in with make-up while they were thinning so I don't look too goofy. This week my eyelashes are growing! After complaining about my hairy arms I think some of it actually fell out last week also...my arms look kind of crazy now because I have these random hairs all over. The hair on my head seems to have really grown a bunch this week and it is not all gray! Jillian told me my head looked dirty and when I looked closer it was dark red or brown hair coming in. The thick stubbles that stayed on my head all thru chemo seemed to have fallen out recently also...now all the hair is very, very fine and soft.

Here is something I forgot to mention that happened last weekend. Jillian and I were in Hobby Lobby waiting for the clerk to cut some fabric for us. I guess the clerk and I were talking about my situation (I just had a bandana on my head) and the guy standing behind me must have been listening. He tapped me on the shoulder and when I turned around he asked me if he and his wife could pray with me right there....he went on to tell me that in 2001 he was diagnosed with a brain tumor and told that he had 6 months to live...he is doing great today and is a firm believer that he is here because God took care of him. I told him I would be happy to have them say a prayer for me so there the four of us stood in the middle of Hobby Lobby praying...he asked God to take care of me during my surgery and also prayed for my strength during all of this...he also said a nice prayer for Jillian. I thanked them and we went our separate ways....just another interesting experience in this journey....

Anxiety Attacks???

I think I might have had an anxiety attack today (Friday). I had to go to the hospital for some pre-surgery testing. They sent me to the outpatient surgery area which is where I had my port put in. As I was sitting in the waiting area I could tell I was getting very hot and thought I was going to vomit or pass out..that feeling just kept coming and going until I went back to see the nurse. I told her what was going on and she said my blood pressure was way too high. When I finished with her I had to go to radiology/nuclear medicine for a chest x-ray. As I was waiting to get called back I was asking myself if the memories from the horrible port surgery were freaking me out or was I maybe having anxiety about the mastectomy. I don't know if I have really let it sink in about the surgery because I have just wanted to get the cancer or pre-cancer out of my body. I was feeling a little stressed out about all of this as I started to leave the hospital. I was walking down the hall and who do you think I ran into??? Yep - Dr. B. We stopped and talked a few minutes...he of course wanted to know what I was doing there. I told him about my little episode and he assured me that I would be just fine. As usual he was very understanding and asked about Bret....he is just such a nice doctor and I felt better after talking to him...he just always seems to be able to calm my crazy nerves.

I also heard from a friend that works in the surgery department at Good Sam. She is trying to set things up so I get the best nurses and support staff the day of my surgery. When she called I just could not tell her how much I appreciated her going out of her way and she said she would do anything to try to make the experience as good as possible for me....what a great lady!! She said she had talked to Dr. K about my surgery and he was telling her about a letter I wrote to him recently. I just feel lucky to have such good doctors so I try to take the time to do little things to let them know that they are appreciated. So many times you see doctors that have these "God complexes"...they are arrogant and hard to deal with. I just feel so blessed that both Dr. B and Dr. K are very down to earth and make me really feel like they care about my well-being. You know that these types of jobs have to be extremely stressful but these two men have always taken the extra time to answer all my questions and they are very patient with me..the Cincinnati area is very lucky to have these two guys!

Our weekend has been busy and fun. On Friday the Hulefeld Family came over for dinner and it was fun to catch up with them. On Saturday morning I took Jillian to swim lessons. Saturday evening Jillian and I went to a book party at a friends house and then we left there and I dropped her off where Tyler was babysitting so I could join Bret at our neighborhood Dinner Club. After that a group of us moved over to the Smith's house. We played a game called Farkle which was a lot of fun. We are so lucky to have such great neighbors!!

Today Jillian and I went with Melissa and Olivia to the Mom's Club Easter Egg Hunt. They quickly found the eggs in the mud and the four of us went out for lunch together.

I am glad we had so much going on this weekend. It has kept my mind off the surgery and since I know I won't be doing much for a while I just want to get out and do everything fun that I can before the 25th..

(One of the pics at the top of this post is from last weekend with my sisters and my niece. The second pic is Jillian at Olivia at the Easter Egg Hunt on Sunday)

I read something good today!

Since I have been diagnosed I have always wondered if there was any correlation between how my Mom has done with her cancer and how I would do with mine...I have never been able to find any references in writing to this. Today I was doing some research and I found a study that was released last year that said they do believe that if a mother survives 5 years after diagnosis the chances of the daughter doing the same is at least 90%. My Mom was diagnosed in 2001 and has been doing great..ROCK ON MOM!!! I know 5 years sounds kind of bad but that is how most of the research is set up....I just always like to hear those percentages over 90%!! Yes, I know I am not a statistic but you can't help but wonder...

It was great to see some positive news.

It really bothered me last week when Jillian said she was sad because of my hair...well, it must have been on her mind again yesterday. Last night she asked if she could rub my head and after she did she said "I think you are really beautiful with no hair and you know, there are a few other beautiful people with no hair"..not sure who she was talking about but it was sweet of her to say that.

Tyler had his Spring choir concert tonight. It was interesting because this quarter they did a "test" and broke into two choirs..a boys choir and a girls choir. Imagine a big group of 7th grade boys singing with all various stages of voice changes due to puberty!! My boy is growing up fast!!

Tuesday update...

Not much new here...just watching 15" of snow melt...should be quite messy around here in a few days!

Happy 20th Birthday to my niece Amanda! It was fun "getting snowed in" with you this weekend and I hope you have a great day. Looking forward to celebrating the big 21 with you next year!!

Luckily all my joint aches and pains have subsided so I guess it is the Herceptin...I have heard that it might help to slow down the infusion time so I will ask about that next week. It's kind of hard to believe that my surgery is just two weeks from today...it will be good to put that behind me!!!! Have a good day!

Not even 20" of snow can stop the Deel Girls!

Well, Mother Nature certainly had her sights set on Ohio this Friday and Saturday. My sisters and niece were meeting me in Columbus on Friday night. Luckily we all decided to head that direction early because the snow and freezing rain started early Friday. We all made it to Columbus just fine and then the storm really hit. On my way up there I stopped at the Outlet Mall to hit a few of my favorite stores and then I went on to Columbus. Once I got there I went to the Mall and had a wonderful spa pedicure at the Aveda Spa. The storm continued to rage but I was able to meet my dear friend Emily for dinner that night...it was so great to spend time with her and catch up. We woke up Saturday morning and realized we were definitely snowed in...I could see my van from my hotel room and there was a huge drift all the way up the back to the window. Since we had made our reservations at different times I was at a different hotel than my sisters. We had plans of going over to the Hilton in the Easton area Saturday night but we had to cancel those plans because there was a level 3 snow emergency and the roads were very bad. The girls were finally able to get out of their hotel and move into my room with me. I had a two room suite so there was plenty of room for all of us. That day we just took it easy at the pool and hot tub and hung out in the room and watched TV. In the evening the bartender for the small lounge in the hotel made it in so we went down to have a drink...we ordered from Donato's (the only place the hotel knew of that was open) and ate down in the lounge. While we were eating the skies finally cleared and a beautiful sunset lit up the evening sky...we knew the storm was finally over. I overheard the hotel clerk say that a few restaurants were open so I was ready for an evening expedition. We dug the van out of the drift and took a drive...we finally stopped in the bar at Texas Roadhouse and hung out there for a while.

This morning we were ready for some shopping! Luckily the roads were in great shape so we shopped for a couple hours and then ended our get-together on a "tropical" note...we ate at Cheeseburger in Paradise and sipped one final girlie cocktail! After that we got in our cars and headed for home. I guess the four of us will never forget where we were during the Blizzard of '08! It was a lot of fun just to relax and hang out together...I am not sure what it is about sisters getting together but we certainly do seem to laugh about the silliest things...and bring up some weird memories from growing up together! It really was a great weekend and I am thankful for two great sisters and a sweet niece and so glad that we were able to get together.

I HATE cancer!!!

It's been an easy week to be in a bad mood....I should be thankful for feeling pretty good and being alive but I am just sick of the cancer crap. On Tuesday I was still having aches and pains in my joints and I had a pretty bad pain in the bad boob so I decided it was time to call Dr. B....Diane called back and said the aches and pains were probably from the Herceptin and that the pain sounded like a scar tissue issue from the port. Of course, in my mind I had decided that the cancer had spread from the breast to the bones but if they are not worried, I should try to not worry. I still have this fear that once they remove both breasts they will find more invasive cancer....that's what sucks about cancer - there is always something more to worry about and every ache or pain you feel will make you worry that it is spreading to another part of your body. The weather has been horrible....a couple days it was so windy that I just knew my wig was going to blow off...how dumb do you think I look running thru a parking lot holding the top of my head! Jillian just came in to me crying and she said she was a little sad....I was holding her and asking her why she was sad and she finally said "I just want your hair to grow back." I hate that the kids have to live with this....

I am meeting my sisters and niece in Columbus this weekend for a little getaway....the bad news is we are supposed to have our worst winter storm this year starting tomorrow...I am not going to let the weather stop me so I took a vacation day and I am leaving in the morning....they are also going to try to get an early start....if nothing else we will be snowed in together in Columbus...it will be fun and it's just what I need after a rotten week........

Finally! Some warm weather!

We finally had some warm weather in Ohio...today it almost hit 60! Jillian and I walked down to the lake to watch the geese play on the ice...hopefully it won't be frozen much longer. We have had a good weekend. Last night was bunco night so the Strawberry Hill Bunco Babes celebrated St. Patrick's Day a little early. I made a visit to my 2nd favorite wig shop (Party City) to pick up a nice green wig for the event...maybe that brought me the luck of the Irish...I had lowest points for the night and finally won a little cold hard cash - YIPPEE! Thanks to Jen for hosting a fun evening...it is always fun to catch up with the girls!

I have been more tired than usual this weekend and achy like I just worked out or something...I am wondering if these are side affects of the Herceptin...it really isn't that bad and nothing compared to the chemo so I can put up with it for 10 more months if I have to. My hot flashes are becoming more regular now...I guess I am definitely in menopause now. Luckily, the hot flashes just happen a couple times in the middle of the night and I am able to fall back to sleep pretty easily...I guess they might get worse when I start taking the tamoxifen after surgery but we will just have to wait and see.

Have a great week!