Rock hard foobs for months...

Well, things went ok with the PS on Friday. She had a hard time accessing the right foob again...it is now so far under my arm that she has a hard time getting the needle in..this was the first time a "fill" hurt...I guess that's because I still have nerve endings under my arm. We did another 50 ccs on each side. They have been pretty tender all weekend but really cause me the most pain when trying to sleep...I just can't quit sleeping on my side. The plan for right now is to go back to see her in October...we will decide if I want to go a little bigger and fill 1 or 2 final times and then do the exchange the first week of November. It will be nice to take a break from this for a couple months! The foobs look ok....the right side is funny to see how far it sticks out...I had a sleeveless shirt on Friday and that afternoon at work I was shocked to look down and see the side of my foob just sticking out for all to see!! We started joking about it..we called it "peek a foob". I have never been much of an exhibitionist but maybe I will be now! It's kind of weird how many people I let feel these things....if you would have told me I would be doing that a year ago I would have said "no way"! They are just so odd...just feels like a hard ball under the skin...when I get in a conversation with someone about them I just say "here, want to feel them?"....ok, it has been all women except for Bret...calm down Mom.....

I have Herceptin treatment this week and will see Dr. B. for a check up. I am feeling fine except I have started to have swelling in my ankles and feet. He has always asked about swelling but never said why...I guess I will find out this week. It seemed to start after I started taking the Tamoxifen but I do worry a little that it is related to my heart since the Herceptin can cause heart damage....I will get my MUGA heart test later this month..

I have noticed that my finger nails are getting in worse shape every day...they have always been so thick and strong but now they are so soft and just peel away. I had heard that Herceptin can cause nail problems so this might be a problem for a while...

We have had a good weekend...the highlight of our weekend was attending Amanda's Adoption Party. She has been living with Heather for a couple years and now she is "officially" her daughter. What a lucky little girl....she has been blessed to make it thru the foster system and be a success story. She was taken care of by a wonderful couple before she came to live with Heather....she is loved so much and has overcome so many obstacles in her young life. She is a joy to be around...she and Jillian are so close...we just love her and are so happy that the adoption is final.

The party was an "Alice in Wonderland" theme..Heather did an awesome job on everything to make the day just perfect for Amanda. There were lots of kids and even some adults that were dressed up as characters from the story. Jillian kept changing her mind but she finally settled on "The Queen of Hearts".

I attended the party without anything on my head...I was pretty nervous but it was a hot, humid day and I decided to give it a try. It really turned out fine....one person that I have only met a few times over the years told me that he thought I had cut my hair...he said he didn't think I looked like someone that had lost all their hair....I was actually surprised how many men actually made comments about my hair...guys don't usually notice things like that but they were all very kind. Now I have to decide if I am ready to stop wearing scarves to work...as of last week I was thinking I would still do it for a few more weeks but everyone at the party on Friday was telling me to stop now. I miss my old hair...it's hard to believe I lost it over 7 months ago. When I look in the mirror it is still like looking at a stranger every day...who knows if my hair will ever be like it was before...

We probably need to post a pic for those of you that I don't see very often but to date I have NO pics of me with my head not covered...maybe we will take one later this week...

Have a good week (Yeah! It's a short work week) and thanks for reading!