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Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Just a down day...
Work was rough and I just seemed to have no focus...my mind keeps going back to the lump...should we have delayed our trip to go ahead and get it out?? I know it's just 2 weeks from now but I am really driving myself crazy with worry. The more and more I think about it I am afraid they are going to tell me we are going to do everything over again....I don't know how I could do that....doing it once when you don't know what to expect is one thing...doing it a second time when you know how bad it can be would be so much harder....I just don't think that I am really that strong....
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Don't even allow your mind to go there... we are trusting the Lord...NO MORE TREATMENTS!!
We are going to live to celebrate
our 100th birthday and receive a letter from the president!
Thoughts and prayers!
Dorothy
Hi Jan: We are all cheering for you and thinking positive thoughts!
Karen
Jan - you are stronger than you think! Don't be so hard on yourself..... It's OK to be fearful. It's understandable to be fearful - but again - I believe in your doctors - as I know you do.... and if they thought it would hurt you to wait two weeks - you would have been doing it the very next open spot. "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way... Be still, and know that I am God." (a verse from Psalm 46) With going thru all we are with JD - I have found great strength and comfort in scripture - and the PROMISE of God.... He's right there for you! So many times I felt like the earth was giving way - as I'm sure those thoughts are with you right now. BUT He is in control and He carries us through the hard times. So you'll be OK. It will be OK. I just know it! I love you. Keep hanging on - you can do this!!!! You already are!!!! Sue
Jan - two things come to mind as I read your blog today . . . "If God brings you to it He will bring you through it". The other thing my Mom always said as she went through treatment time and time again, "God won't give you more than you can handle". I know that's easy to say from someone who has never been through it but I live by those words because of my Mom. She went through chemo and radiation several times and that is all she ever said when we would ask her how she felt. Jan, you are a very strong person. Like Sue said, it's okay to be fearful but you will be fine. She's right, the doctors would have told you to come in sooner and not put it off if it was going to hurt to wait. I have faith.
Take care ~
Stacey Brock
Hi Jan,
I recently found your blog and have been reading it for the past few days.
I'm praying for you - I know you can handle whatever comes your way.
Tina Bellendir
Wow, Sue said everything that I was going to say! You are much stronger then you give yourself credit for and you HAVE to believe in your Doctors. Do you remember the urgency last time? The call you received late in the evening when I was there telling you what had to be done, etc. If they had any inclination that you were heading down that path again, I firmly believe they would not have said go on vacation and we'll see you when you get back!!!! Now, relax and know that this will all be taken care of very soon, and with good results!
Love you,
Kay
Hi Jan - hoping you are having a peaceful, relaxing, enjoyable day! Sure do love and miss you! Sue
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