I hope that everyone had a great New Year's...we had a quiet evening at home and I think we all slept thru the ringing in of the new year....
My pain from the last treatment has gone away. On Monday it was much more tolerable...most of the time it was just random quick shots of pain going from my hips, to my knees, to my toes. I have have had very little of the numbness in my fingers and toes that normally goes along with the Taxol so I am thankful for that. The crazy rash has returned worse than ever. As of this morning I am broke out all over my arms, shoulders, chest and legs. I plan to call Dr. B. today to see if he has any new ideas of something to get this under control. It is not really itchy but they are more like open sores that burn so anything that I wear really irritates it.
The kids finally return to school today - Thank God!~ It is obvious by Jillian's temperament these last few days that she is a child that definitely needs a routine...she has been quite unpleasant!!! We got a couple inches of snow last night so school is on a 2 hour delay but thank goodness daycare should still be open! I am taking the rest of the week off for vacation....I have not taken any vacation days since July so I have really been looking forward to these days. I had big plans in my mind that I was going to go to the outlet mall one day and maybe even go over to one of the casino's in Indiana but I realize now that I won't be doing that. My energy level is just way too low for things like that right now. I find that I get up in the morning and feel really good but as soon as I get out and start running around a wave of fatigue washes over me and wipes me out in no time. It's hard to accept that this is the way things are for a while but I just keep focusing on the fact that chemo will be over in a month and I can start getting stronger after that.....for now I just have to listen to my body and take it easy even if my brain still wants to run and be busy.
Did you make a New Year's Resolution this year? I don't normally make them because I never keep them but I did decide that one of my "goals" for the new year is to stop worrying so much about the future and cancer and try to focus more on enjoying each day and appreciate the gift that each day truly is....
I want to thank all of you again for reading my blog....I love getting messages from you so keep checking in!! Your never ending support for our family is unbelievable and greatly appreciated!
I hope that 2008 is a great year for everyone full of love, health, friendship and happiness! Love - Jan
9 comments:
What a perfect resolution for you! It is so exciting to hear you say that in a month this will be done and you can go on with your life! So glad the rash is the only obstacle at the moment. Hopefully the Doc has a suggestion for you! Try and enjoy your last couple of days off, I am back to work tomorrow myself. Don't do too much, just what you feel like doing! Jan, I wish you and your family the best in 2008, you all deserve nothing but happiness and good health!
Love, Kay
Good morning Jan! Lucky you - still on vacation. Back to reality for me today - but that's OK - it will be a short week! (short but busy!).... You know how that goes! Well, I thought it would be fun to meet you at the casino... Maybe when you get your energy back and this chemo is behind you - we could plan that! I'd love it! Pretty broke right now though! Maybe I'd hit it big! (hehe)... Well, ENJOY your time off and I'll talk soon. Love you so much! Sue
Hi Jan, Happy New Year! Hang in there girl, one more month and I'll pray it will go by fast for you. Everyone is here to support you. I am so proud of you, you are doing so good and pretty soon, this will all just be a memory. I'm praying for you and your family. God Bless.
Love and miss tons.
xoxoxo
Valerie
Good morning Jan! Hope you are enjoying your peace and quite. Work flew by yesterday - which was nice! So it's ALREADY Thursday! YIPPEE..... Brandon and Holly leave this weekend, so I'll be missing them, but sure was nice having them around~ Not much to report. Just wanted to check in and tell you I'm thinking of you - and I love you! Sue
Hey there! I just got back from Christmas vacation today and was anxious to check your blog. Glad to hear that treatment #5 didn't leave you in such a fog, but bummer that the other side effects had to creep in there. I'm so glad this chemo is almost over - I know it has really sucked the life out of you and you are anxious to get back to it! What a great New year's resolution! Mine was not to yell so much at my kids! haha! We spent most of the holidays at the cabin and actually got some snow too. The kids loved it, but it was too dang cold for me (11 degrees was a bit cool for my Southern blood). I've started mountain biking again and another resolution for me is to be in better shape and to be more aware of my health. I pray that the year 2008 holds great things for the Middletons! You guys deserve it after what you have been through! Hang in there! :) Love ya! Linda
Jan - I just got on your blog and read it all the way from beginning to now. You are truly an amazing, strong person. We know midwest girls are tough, but you surely prove that for all. One thing I have noticed is how wonderful your family cohesiveness is during all of this. It is so nice to read how well you are all working together as a complete team to punch this cancer in the gut. It sounds like you have total support from extended family and friends as well. I am so happy for you. I continue to pray for you. You and Stan Mason are my prayer priorites, as his cancer is back and he's going through chemo again too. I know our prayers are being answered because you are still strong in your faith and meeting this head-on with the best attitude. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Hang tough!
Nancy
Hello Middleton Family coming to you from Beth Neal and family!! I apologize, Jan, but I just found out. I am pretty much out of the loop and don't really see anyone anymore until a few days ago. I didn't even realize you moved to Ohio. I basically just found that out as well. I just want to let you know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. You have always been a strong person and I know you and your family will get through this. Beautiful pictures of your family. I will definitely check in with your progress and know that we are thinking of you. Love, Beth, Jerry, Nathan & McKenzie Neal
Way to go on your "New Year's Resolution" - Your GOAL is amazing and is a great encouragement to all of us who worry too much about whatever is going on in our lives. Thank you for your honesty, Jan - I'm praying for you.
Hi Jan!!!
Finally had a chance to check in on you. Things have been crazy here at our household. While everyone was off for break or vacation, I worked the whole time. So I'm glad to get back to my normal schedule, you know...sending out emails (or signing Blogs) at 1am!!!
Glad to hear that the pain has gone away. Hopefully you can get the rash thing under control.
I can't believe that you only have one more month of treatment!! That's great news. Soon you will be able to put all of this behind you, build your strength back up and be able to hit all the outlet malls you want for as long as you want and of course head over to the casino!!! That will be awesome!!
You are such an inspiration and such an amazing woman!!! Stay strong!!!
We'll talk soon!!
Take care...all our love and prayers for you and your family!
Sheryl
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