Anxiety Attacks???

I think I might have had an anxiety attack today (Friday). I had to go to the hospital for some pre-surgery testing. They sent me to the outpatient surgery area which is where I had my port put in. As I was sitting in the waiting area I could tell I was getting very hot and thought I was going to vomit or pass out..that feeling just kept coming and going until I went back to see the nurse. I told her what was going on and she said my blood pressure was way too high. When I finished with her I had to go to radiology/nuclear medicine for a chest x-ray. As I was waiting to get called back I was asking myself if the memories from the horrible port surgery were freaking me out or was I maybe having anxiety about the mastectomy. I don't know if I have really let it sink in about the surgery because I have just wanted to get the cancer or pre-cancer out of my body. I was feeling a little stressed out about all of this as I started to leave the hospital. I was walking down the hall and who do you think I ran into??? Yep - Dr. B. We stopped and talked a few minutes...he of course wanted to know what I was doing there. I told him about my little episode and he assured me that I would be just fine. As usual he was very understanding and asked about Bret....he is just such a nice doctor and I felt better after talking to him...he just always seems to be able to calm my crazy nerves.

I also heard from a friend that works in the surgery department at Good Sam. She is trying to set things up so I get the best nurses and support staff the day of my surgery. When she called I just could not tell her how much I appreciated her going out of her way and she said she would do anything to try to make the experience as good as possible for me....what a great lady!! She said she had talked to Dr. K about my surgery and he was telling her about a letter I wrote to him recently. I just feel lucky to have such good doctors so I try to take the time to do little things to let them know that they are appreciated. So many times you see doctors that have these "God complexes"...they are arrogant and hard to deal with. I just feel so blessed that both Dr. B and Dr. K are very down to earth and make me really feel like they care about my well-being. You know that these types of jobs have to be extremely stressful but these two men have always taken the extra time to answer all my questions and they are very patient with me..the Cincinnati area is very lucky to have these two guys!

Our weekend has been busy and fun. On Friday the Hulefeld Family came over for dinner and it was fun to catch up with them. On Saturday morning I took Jillian to swim lessons. Saturday evening Jillian and I went to a book party at a friends house and then we left there and I dropped her off where Tyler was babysitting so I could join Bret at our neighborhood Dinner Club. After that a group of us moved over to the Smith's house. We played a game called Farkle which was a lot of fun. We are so lucky to have such great neighbors!!

Today Jillian and I went with Melissa and Olivia to the Mom's Club Easter Egg Hunt. They quickly found the eggs in the mud and the four of us went out for lunch together.

I am glad we had so much going on this weekend. It has kept my mind off the surgery and since I know I won't be doing much for a while I just want to get out and do everything fun that I can before the 25th..

(One of the pics at the top of this post is from last weekend with my sisters and my niece. The second pic is Jillian at Olivia at the Easter Egg Hunt on Sunday)