We had a good weekend. Mom and Dad are here so we just hung out. Bret fixed a nice Ham dinner for us for Easter. As I predicted...we did actually get snow on Easter Sunday - Yuck! It wasn't much and it was later in the day. Dad and I got out and took a nice long walk along the lake earlier in the day. The kids were busy all weekend with parties, swim lessons, etc. Tyler's 13th bithday is today...I can't believe he is a teenager!!
I feel much more calm about surgery. I think the stress at work along with the stress of the surgery was just a little too much last week. My online support group has helped a bunch this weekend. Many of the ladies told me that they thought the exact same things that I am thinking before surgery....it just really helps to have people that know exactly what you are going thru so you don't think you are totally nuts. I have learned so much about what to expect after surgery and tips on how to make things a little easier...I have even seen photos taken just a few days after a mastectomy so hopefully that will ease the shock of looking at myself for the first when the bandages are removed.
More than anything I just am sad that they just cannot find a cure for this disease...I have met some incredible women and it just makes my heart break to see a girl at the age of 20 find out she has breast cancer or to hear of a Mom in her early 30s being moved to hospice this weekend because her battle is almost over. She has two small children and they are coloring pictures and laying them on her bed so she can take them to heaven. There are women that were just married when they were diagnosed and now they may not be able to have children because of the chemo. We hear everyday that there have been so many great advances in the fight against breast cancer but every day women are dying...moms, daughters, sisters...it just doesn't seem fair.
I feel very lucky that I have such a good prognosis. One thing I have never done is ask "why me?. I have always looked at this situation as God brought this to me and hopefully he will help me defeat it because he wants me to do something good with this experience. I really believe I am supposed to help others when I am done with this so every day I pray that he will heal me and then help me see what I am to do with what I have learned.
Let's all keep praying for a cure...
7 comments:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUR SON! Teenagers, what a trip they can be but I wouldn't change it for the world! Amen to finding a cure. The advances they are making are amazing and I am sure we will see a cure in our lifetime. Glad your Easter went well. I am trying desperately to be able to sign on your blog so I can keep it updated while you are in the hospital but I haven't succeeded yet! I'll keep at it though.
Thinking of you every minute and praying for a quick recovery.
Love, Kay
Jan,
Know that you will go into surgery tomorrow wrapped in the love and warmth of all those many, many people who care so much about you. You are a wonderful woman and bring joy to many lives.
You have met the challenge of each step of this battle with strength and grace. You're an inspiration!
Love you!
janie
Hi to all! Jan, we will be thinking of you tomorrow. Happy Birthday to Tyler. Nancy & Steve
HI Jan.. It's no big surprise that I can't get you off my mind at all today! I woke up last night at 1:30 and kept thinking about you - and praying for you - along with singing songs JD planted in my head on our long drive home yesterday! hehe.. Those why me questions can be so hard. He's already USED you in so many ways with this disease - and I KNOW it's only just begun with you. The purpose WILL become evident - and I'm certain you'll move mountains because of your experience.... I love you Jan. I admire your courage! Take care.... you're always in my thoughts and prayers.... Sue
Jan,
Just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you everday and will be tomorrow during your surgery. I know you will do just fine. I think God puts us in a place that we don't understand why at the time but when we look back later we do understand. I think you are right that you will be able to help other women through similar situations and I can't think of a better person to do that than you. I'm just sorry that you have to go through all of this first.
Hope Tyler has a great birthday. 13 years old! I remember when you wore the wrist bands because you couldn't stop throwing up! Time sure does fly.
Good luck tomorrow Jan. I am praying for a quick recovery. Hugs to your whole family!
Love,
Stacey Brock
Hi Jan
I just wanted you to know that I am praying for you today and will be praying tomorrow during your surgery. They sure have come along way in the last 12years and hopefully they will find that cure. I can't beleive Tyler is 13yrs old. Cammie will be 13 next month. I remember when you, me and Beth Neal were all pregnant at the same time. Those were fun days when we were all together.
I will be thinking of you,
Love
Cathy Norman
Sorry - me again! Can you tell I can't get you off my mind!???? Sorry I didn't catch you on the phone tonight - but I'm sure the time spent with your family is the best way to chip away at the time! I'm not sure what time check in or surgery is tomorrow. Please know - my night tonight ends with prayers going up for you and your family, and will begin exactly the same way! OK???? Love you soooo much! Sue
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