It's been an easy week to be in a bad mood....I should be thankful for feeling pretty good and being alive but I am just sick of the cancer crap. On Tuesday I was still having aches and pains in my joints and I had a pretty bad pain in the bad boob so I decided it was time to call Dr. B....Diane called back and said the aches and pains were probably from the Herceptin and that the pain sounded like a scar tissue issue from the port. Of course, in my mind I had decided that the cancer had spread from the breast to the bones but if they are not worried, I should try to not worry. I still have this fear that once they remove both breasts they will find more invasive cancer....that's what sucks about cancer - there is always something more to worry about and every ache or pain you feel will make you worry that it is spreading to another part of your body. The weather has been horrible....a couple days it was so windy that I just knew my wig was going to blow off...how dumb do you think I look running thru a parking lot holding the top of my head! Jillian just came in to me crying and she said she was a little sad....I was holding her and asking her why she was sad and she finally said "I just want your hair to grow back." I hate that the kids have to live with this....
I am meeting my sisters and niece in Columbus this weekend for a little getaway....the bad news is we are supposed to have our worst winter storm this year starting tomorrow...I am not going to let the weather stop me so I took a vacation day and I am leaving in the morning....they are also going to try to get an early start....if nothing else we will be snowed in together in Columbus...it will be fun and it's just what I need after a rotten week........
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Jan, have a great weekend get away! You deserve it and it'll help bring your spirits back up! While I know you are so concerned about what this is doing to your kids, remember that you have done/are doing a great job raising them....they are compassionate caring individuals, and be proud of the way they are already showing this.
I hope your aches subside soon. I'm with you about wanting spring to finally arrive. Hopefully this is winter's last fury and the warm weather is on it's way.
Karen
Jan - I am so sorry you've had a bad week. But my gosh - all that you've been thru, it's no wonder you'd be feeling that way! It's nice that you had your get-away weekend plans - and you go girl - if the weather can't stop you - nothing will! 2 can play that game - hehehe..... You have a very good time! QFT - quality family time. Nothing better than! I love you. You keep hanging tough. You WILL beat this.... You ARE beating this! I love you..... Sue
Hi Jan! I hope you're on your way to Columbus. It's snowing here now but the roads are still fine. Have a fun weekend and enjoy yourself! You deserve a little time away for yourself.
Your kids are lucky to have you! You're a wonderful mom! And your grace through this struggle is setting a great example for them.
love you,
janie
I'm so sorry you had a bad week! Cancer sux and you have every right to be angry - it's a miserable disease and nobody should have to go through what you are experiencing! Sometimes don't you just want to jump up and down and throw a fit like our kids do! It's probably healthier to let your frustrations out rather than keep it bottled up inside. :) Call me if you need to vent - I'm here for ya! Love ya! Linda
Hi Jan - Happy Saturday! Hope you are enjoying with your sisters and niece. What I'd give for a weekend getaway with my sister and niece!?? I hope you are feeling good and can REALLY enjoy! The weather channel was looking like Ohio was going to get hit pretty hard. Be careful in your travels home! I love you! Sue
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