I think the hair will fall out soon....

It has been a crazy week! I have been working long hours at work for this training session but today is the last day! I was pretty frustrated last night on my way home because I felt so tired and sick....I was so mad that this disease can take so much away. I got home and fell into bed only to wake up at 4 am with my scalp hurting....this is typically your warning sign that it's time for your hair to start falling out. I went ahead and got up and got into the shower and I could tell that it has started. I am thankful that I kept it through the training session but it is still hard to imagine that sometime soon all of my hair will be gone. I cry as I write this because in the big picture it seems silly to be upset over something like hair and I felt like I was ready for it to happen but now that it has started it is just hard to accept. I know I am also getting stressed about chemo tomorrow, it just sucks to know in advance that you will lose three or four days because you can't function. I guess I am just tired and it makes things seem worse but luckily my 23 reps along with all the regional sales managers will be in soon and it will be time to get up in front of them for the day and do the training....it will be a good distraction.....